Accepting You

Most people today as we see have a hard time accepting themselves even though they believe they do. I was definitely one of those people. In 2000, there was a precious man who stood in front of me and said, " I saw a razor at a wrist, it starts with opinions, that says I'd rather be dead than to face what I'm facing." He then spoke to the spirit of death and suicide and said, "you leave that young lady alone!"

I spent most of my life having such a low self- esteem that throughout certain journeys I just did not have the strength to go on. I always saw myself through people's eyes and their opinions that I never really saw myself. No this is not a pity party, but truly a journey of freedom. After going through a deep healing with the CREATOR each day I learn to love myself more than the day before (it is very healthy for you to love yourself), and I need to love me, because the CREATOR loves me. My heart was to never intentionally hurt anyone, but the truth is I was hurting myself all along.

No one's journey in life will be perfect, and the CREATOR never expects you to be perfect. HE just wants a relationship with you, and HE wants you to see you the way HE sees you. Forgiven, chosen, beautiful, strong, rescued, wanted, unique, and most importantly LOVED. I chose to share a specific picture with you because before my healing I was broken, shattered, lost and emotionally bent over. After my healing I am now FORGIVEN, FREE, JOYFUL, A BEAUTIFUL SURVIVOR, and most of all I AM LOVED. Today I stand tall even though I am only 4' 10". I can now see truth! I see what the CREATOR sees, and if you will allow HIM to heal your soul you will be able to see HIS beautiful creation too, and that's YOU!

The only opinion that really matters is the opinion of the CREATOR and yours. You are HIS handcrafted masterpiece. So, each day wake up knowing you are LOVED just as you are. There is so much to live for, and if I can survive with the help of the CREATOR; you can survive too!

Until next time,

THE CREATOR LOVES YOU! ❤️

HE Makes It So Personal

As I shared with you last week about letting go; one of the things that I had to really let go of was the betrayal that happened to me as a teenager. Only a few know about that betrayal, and it took me until this past January to face it. There was a certain person in my life that exposed himself to me( the 2nd violation of my childhood), and from that very second it distorted my view of a man. I buried that night out of fear and struggled with my eyesight while looking at men from that moment on.

One night in February while preparing for our trip to the Rockies; I stopped to look at my phone and this movie from a TV show that played in the early 90's popped up. It was called "Little Girl Lost" and it was based on a true story. It was about a little foster girl who had been molested by her biological father. As I stopped to rewatch it the Creator said, "pay attention to her name." Well, her nickname was BEANS. Growing up my nickname was BEANIE. As my heart began to feel overwhelmed, and the tears began to fall; I chose in that moment to verbally say that "I truly forgive him." (I said his name out loud) I then asked the Creator to heal my eyesight and to help me to never struggle with that again.

A few days later we then made our way to the Rockies and spent a day in Hidden Valley snow sledding. I got down to the bottom of the hill, and just laid there. I watched as the snow blew over me and knew at that moment the Creator had just sealed my past. My healing was now complete, and the scars were now removed. All shame is now gone!

No matter what you may have endured on your journey; the Creator will heal you if you let HIM. HE will go to the depth of that wound to cleanse and restore you. HE is the great healer! HE will seal your past, remove your scars, and remove all of the shame in your life just as HE did with me. Now I would like to share a song with you as an example of just how personal HE will make it with you because HE loves you so much. Your healing will be the most memorable moment of your life. Remember the greatest words ever spoken to your soul are the ones that come from the Creator.

Until next time,

THE CREATOR LOVES YOU! ❤️

https://youtu.be/hf5KRfbDnx0?si=pUsxSUeRtOstqmSW

Let It ALL Go = FREEDOM

Many years ago someone told me "And when you let go that's when the doors will open." In all honesty I struggled with trying to figure out what I was holding onto. Then after the last few journeys that I have had to walk out; it became very clear. I had to let go of the anger, the hurt from my past, the betrayal that was done to me, the rejection that was placed on me, the shame that I carried, and most of all I had to let go of the unforgiveness that I felt.

One journey after the other it was hard for me to see clarity on anything and that brought me to a place of not even wanting to live anymore, but with the tenderness of the Creator healing each layer of my soul the more I let go the more I felt real freedom. We lose so much time carrying the weight of life's issues, and the pain from our past that we stay in a mindset of shame longer than what we should. Yes, we all mess up and we all make giant mistakes on our journey, but in our journey the Creator really does heal every layer, every wound, and every part of your soul. Today, I say that I am living proof of that!

So whatever hurt, pain, betrayal, rejection, shame or unforgiveness that you carry, from my heart to yours I ask you to take a step and freefall into the Creator's arms and allow HIM to heal your heart, your wounds, and more importantly really heal your soul. As tender as HE was with me I know HE will be that tender with you. LETTING IT ALL GO REALLY DOES EQUAL FREEDOM!

Until next time,

The CREATOR loves you!